Over the duration of several years, it was normal for me and my mates to drink. Everybody went to school and work, and I had the pleasure of being drunk four out of the weeks seven days. It was a lovely sedative for dealing with my sorrow and loneliness, which I was carrying. I had no clue that I was in the midst of serious alcohol abuse.
When I was 19 years old, I got an apprenticeship in the local supermarket. One day I had a serious headache, and my mother was as always helpful with pills and different medicine. I happily received her help. Then one day I was given two Codeine pills. It alleviated the headache, worked in the same way that alcohol did, it made me happy, indifferent, and it energized me. My blood was gushing happily through my arteries, and I felt good when I took the Codeine pills.
My mother did not wish to fill me with lots of pills, so soon I found my own solutions. That was to call my doctor and say, that I had hurt my knee at football, in order for him to write a prescription for the same type of Codeine pills, which my mother had given me. After some months, he also prescribed other medicines that I liked, on my request of course. I also discovered that if I daily consumed 10-20 Kodimagnyl from the pharmacy, then I could achieve the same happiness, indifference, sedation and an energetic state. It soon became necessary for me to consume 10-15 Codeine pills daily, and 10,20,30,40 Kodimagnyl. All depending on how big my stocks were.
In my peer group, I was introduced to amphetamines, which just increased my feeling of happiness and energy-and as long as I daily consumed a mixture of Codeine, Ketogan, Nobligan, Kodimagnyl, Amphetamines or Cocaine, I felt quite good and happy, with quite a lot of energy. So I believed.
Slowly my world started to collapse. Within two months, I was sacked from my job, and went on sick leave with depression. My girlfriend left me, and I moved to Ikast and isolated myself, without friends, no work – just me with a few belongings, pills, my drugs and myself. Suddenly my alcohol and drug consumption changed from a social medium with friends at football and at parties, to being a lone process of me taking alcohol, pills, medicine and drugs alone.